Khayali Pulao

Do you know that what it costs staying away from your family in such a situation??? No, I am not talking about the pandemic situation, I am just talking about the situation where your family needs you the most and due to some fucking reasons you are away can’t help them but just listen to their stressed voice over the phone call?? Being a girl, practically I very well know that one day I need to leave my family and my people and shift to the environment completely unknown, adjust with people I barely know. …Till I reach that phase of my life, I just want to give my parents that much happiness in life, if they trun back to look at their past, they go the beautiful memory lane and not the situation today. I guess I am being over emotional from last few days and sometimes its completely okay…I have hold my tears and my pain from last 3 months unable to share with anyone. I cry on stupid things but i was quite when I faced something unexpected. Everyone who knew me where shocked knowing that I am normally smiling and living a happy life…Only the one’s who were attached to me saw the tears and knew my mental health was getting worsen day by day. I don’t know why am I writing this today and not from last 3 months….. I loved writing but never wanted to write about this…May be today I want to keep my doors closed for everyone and just take my heart out as it has been occupied by mixed feelings.